Monday, June 20, 2011

Old Times Renewed

I'm not writing.

I've not got a lot to post about.

Time to reveal my journey so far, through the bits I've written. Don't fear, I'll not be throwing up any of the novel manuscripts I've played with, only short stories, articles, and other such pieces. Some will be longer than others. They will cover a range of topics and genres. Any and all comments appreciated (good and bad).

I'll try to give a little background. This will be a warts and all type of thing. Hopefully a path of improvement will be obvious. Hopefully I'm not deluding myself. Hopefully you'll find at least one you like...

Without further ado...

I found a friend in a forum administrator who decided to publish my first piece "out of the blue". She was helping me take my very first fledgling writing-steps. I sent her this little piece I rattled off, and she decided to not only publish it, but pay me for it. I got all misty-eyed and everything...

The Elusive Muse (First Published @ Fiction Factor 2007)
 

According to Dictionary.com v1.1



Muse / –noun
1. Classical Mythology


a. any of a number of sister goddesses, originally given as Aoede (song), Melete (meditation), and Mneme (memory), but latterly and more commonly as the nine daughters of Zeus and Mnemosyne who presided over various arts: Calliope (epic poetry), Clio (history), Erato (lyric poetry), Euterpe (music), Melpomene (tragedy), Polyhymnia (religious music), Terpsichore (dance), Thalia (comedy), and Urania (astronomy); identified by the Romans with the Camenae.


b. any goddess presiding over a particular art.

2. (sometimes lowercase) the goddess or power regarded as inspiring a poet, artist, thinker, or the like.

3. (lowercase) the genius or powers characteristic of a poet.

I am a new author, struggling to find my voice in a world where there are many such as I with an urge to write, and a dream to do it full time. I like to think I’m a little different in that I am not naturally creative, I struggle to find inspiration - I struggle to gain a good grip on my muse.

I know I need one. I need inspiration just as many writers do, but where to find it.

Being the logical, realistic, boring type of guy I am, I thought I had better come to grips with this lack of an inspirational spark, and research what a muse was and how to entrap it for all time, so I could stroke or squeeze it as required.

Then I came across the above definition on the Internet. How on earth could I trap a goddess to do my bidding? Did I even believe in the religious deities of the world (the olden day pantheon type or the more modern counterparts)? Surely not every creative person had their own deity hidden under their desk. Perhaps they shared. No-one had offered to share theirs with me. I must be looking in the wrong place.

Perhaps my nearest and dearest could substitute as my muse(s). No they just interrupt me when I’m trying to write, it is definitely not easier to pen (type) a masterpiece when they are around. I love them more than life itself but couldn’t they just leave me alone as I bang on my keyboard? (They do, however, act as my inspiration for everything outside my writing)

A little Buddha idol or something similar - that’s just silly. The small fast food toy my daughter gave me...now I’m getting desperate.

I continue my research and find the depiction of a woman (the blue haired beauty above), and I have found my muse. She lives inside me, providing a voice of encouragement and of stark honest critique. She offers suggestions, and finds that word I’m trying to think of that sits on the tip of my tongue. She was always inside me, just as the muse is always inside all of us. Sometimes she just needs a physical object to provide a link to that creative spark, sometimes the muse must be given a name.

For me it had to be a she and I needed to see her. She has no name and I cannot define her voice, but she speaks to me on a level that no other can. It was her idea to write this note.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Slightly Less Than A Month

Yep, my capacity for thinking up new and exciting blog post titles sucks the big one at the moment...

Procedure one has come and gone and apart from one slight setback which caused concerns, things have been somewhat on the up. The good news is the numbness in my lower extremities has 99% gone. More good news is the pain on the right side of my lower back has been significantly diminished.

Bad news, now the right side is better, it is no longer masking the pain from the left. The pain from the right is not totally gone. I'm sitting in a chair longer but 40 minutes is probably about it, and even then I struggle to get up. I'm still not writing, or even considering writing, at the moment.

Moving forward - procedure number two, additional horse needles in the back to remove the pain factor, will be taking place July 5th. This will again be under general knockout juice.

Thank you to those still popping by, and thank you to anyone leaving comments of best wishes, they are appreciated.